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Making Life Sweet Again

26/1/2014

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Looking through bleary, teary eyes I half-heartedly opened the kitchen cupboard. Staring back at me was some Starbucks coffee, a tin of baked beans, a jar of pickled onions and a packet of curry flavoured Super Noodles. I don't even like curry. The weekly grocery shop hadn't been high on my list of priorities for a while. 

Moving the first layer of eclectic products aside, I discovered flour, baking powder and icing sugar. I'll make some cupcakes I thought. I had to do 'something' because doing 'nothing' was causing the demons to run riot in my head. I spent that afternoon up to my elbows in cake mix. Weighing. Pouring. Stirring. Whisking. Baking. Piping. And, more importantly, focussing. Pouring any energies I had into the creation of a dozen little iced delights. 

The whole process took a good couple of hours, but what I was left with was a mini army of, even though I say so myself, very pretty looking cupcakes. I didn't want to eat them though, my appetite had been AWOL for a while. But creating them had served as a distraction. It had been therapeutic and a way of escaping the cacophony of negative thoughts that had been plaguing my head. It had been a way of contending with the depression that had been prevalent for quite some time. 
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I gave the cupcakes to friends and family. They were well received. Really well. So well in fact that they asked me to make more. That was three years ago. Since then, baking has become a huge part of my life. I've branched out from mini iced gems to large celebration cakes, experimented with gluten-free recipes, got creative with gingerbread and gone bonkers for brownies. 

There were - and have been - many other factors involved in the management of my depression, but baking has been a key ingredient in helping me fight a very difficult disease. And I'm not alone. One of the winners of The Great British Bake Off, John Whaite, was diagnosed with manic depression nearly a decade ago but explains how baking has been an effective way to manage his condition; "Baking helps lift my depression. It can't cure it, but it helps." 

The Irish author Marian Keyes even wrote a book in 2012 entitled 'Saved by Cake', giving a frank account of her crippling experience of depression and how baking rescued her. She explains, with a generous serving of humour, how the precision of measurements, the prettiness of frosting and the soothing nature of the process all contribute to helping her cope. 
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Marian Keyes
Of course, knocking out a batch of buns isn't a miracle problem solver. And it can't remedy all the World's ills. But, it isn't frivolous either... as some people still consider it to be. As well as helping me (and others) to regain a smile during a harrowing time, there are many other positive benefits too. There's nothing as heart-warming as seeing the expression on a child's face when they're presented with a cake featuring their favourite character. Or providing a hug in cupcake form when someone needs a sweet pick-me-up on a blue day. And, personally speaking, I derive a huge amount of satisfaction and pride when I've completed a baking project with which I'm happy.

So, these days I have my cake and eat it too! My kitchen remains my sanctuary and my 'therapist'. And I'd recommend baking to anyone, whether you're a budding Mary Berry or a complete novice. Next time there's a rainy day, why not search your own kitchen cupboards and see what you can create? You never know where it may lead.

For more information and help about depression, visit the Depression Alliance website: www.depressionalliance.org

For further information in my own words visit my Just Giving Page: www.justgiving.com/carolinebutler

7 Comments
Julie Ashall
26/1/2014 03:12:12 am

I too manage depression and find baking beneficial. I have the Marian Keyes book and John Waites book I have given the Marian Keyes book as a gift to a friend suffering depression she too found it useful

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Caroline
26/1/2014 06:30:21 pm

Thanks so much for taking the time to read my blog Julie. I think baking... and reading... are both great ways of contending with the 'black dog'. I'm so pleased that you too find baking beneficial. :-)

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The Quirkative Panda link
26/1/2014 07:47:09 pm

An utterly wonderful and erudite piece on the benefits of creativity and passion when combined with the debilitation of depression.

Thank you.

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Caroline
26/1/2014 08:15:21 pm

Thank you for such lovely comments 'Quirkative Panda'! Very much appreciated.

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Ruth
26/1/2014 07:57:33 pm

This was such a lovely read, and very poignant for me right now. Sometimes it feels like an effort to do anything, but baking and being creative certainly helps to lift a mood. Thank you.

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Caroline
27/1/2014 11:29:21 pm

Thank you Ruth. :-) I do understand how utter lethargy can take over sometimes too and, like you say, even the smallest thing seems impossible. But, yes, baking (and anything that involves some focus) certainly helps to lift a mood and side-track negative thoughts a little. I really hope you're able to raise a smile soon. :-)

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Becca
27/1/2014 04:14:59 am

You are an inspiration Caroline. Thank you for sharing your wise words and gorgeous cakes! X

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